Sunday, May 6, 2012

Jobs jobs jobs...

So I am currently job hunting pretty hard core right now. It feels good. I am still hoping that whatever job I get will not start until the first of June so that I can hitch a ride with the in-laws down to Utah and see my sister and her family for a week. That would be amazing so I hope it works out. Today I am staying home from church because I am sick. Boo. It is a weird combination of symptoms; stuffy nose, itchy eyes, itchy nose, sore/scratchy throat. Nate had it earlier this week so I guess it is my turn. Oh for jobs I am looking into being a nanny again because so far the aid to the elderly is not working out so well. I am hoping to get a Summer nanny position with older children. That way we can go and do things and I can carry on conversations with the kids. We shall see what happens.

Tomorrow is my Alzheimer's group meeting. Hopefully it will be good. I missed last months because I was out of town so I am hoping to feel well enough to go this month. I randomly found this blog of a lady whose mom has Alzheimer's and she is now her care-taker and I randomly vented on it;

Blogger Maquel said...
My mom was diagnosed with Early Onset Alzheimer's at age 53 and I was 21. I still to this day remember when my dad called and told me. I was devastated but even then I had no idea what it really meant. I was in the denial stage for a couple years and only just a few months ago started to accept it. I live far away from my parents so it is easier to do that then those siblings who are still near home. One thing rang true in your blog. How it is so hard to let go of the woman she was and accept who she is now. She isn't my mom. I see parts of my mom in her but I know those will fade in time like everything that is already missing. I don't talk about it often with people. It really feels like nobody understands. The ask "how is your mom?" and all i say is "she is okay". What am I suppose to say? That she is no longer my mother. That my mom is gone. That there is no hope of ever getting her back. That my children which haven't even been born will not get to meet my real mom. That when I sob in my husbands arms not even he can truly understand because he never knew my real mom. She was gone before we met. It's so frustrating. Thanks for being a spot I could get this all out. For being someone who understands even though I have never met you and have only read your blog. Thank you.
May 4, 2012 6:05 PM
Blogger Linda said...
Maquel, you stop by here and vent any time you want. I'm so sorry for your grief. I know early onset Alzheimer's is even more difficult to cope with than other forms of dementia. May God comfort you in your sorrow, and I pray you find comfort in the knowledge that He will provide both you and your mother what you need on each step of this difficult journey.
May 4, 2012 7:30 PM